Initiatives of Change (Indonesia)


Now it’s been 10 years I involve in this Initiatives of Change movement, however I still feel that now my transformation is not yet satisfied, and now I serve as the main coordinator or a president for the Initiatives of Change Indonesia and some months to go, what’s written below is just a little piece of the story, you may enjoy it but you may not too, so here it is anyway…

 After 7 years staying in the IofC old House, and taking about 1.5 month finding the new House, and through prayers and support within our network we found the new centre for IofC Indonesia. Renting this House is part of our short term goal before we have our permanent IofC centre.

Since 2003 IofC House has been playing an important role in running our IofC daily activities, it becomes our place to learn and share. Every weekend in this centre we have our weekly gathering, for Quiet Time and sharing and sometime we invite friends to share their experience in life changing and occasionally we organize activities that help us to be more efficient change makers, such as leadership training, public speaking, family workshop, inner growth programme, women creator of peace and other activities. And for those who stay in the centre it is a very unique experience, because during staying in the house, we learn to live in a community, learn how to sincerely interact with each other, resolve conflict and appreciate our each personal unique.

Living with IofC values is not always easy to live with but it is not difficult too, living with IofC values requires many steps to continuously evolving and transforming our self to be a better person, in other words living with IofC means living with life itself therefore we hope that this house becomes the centre for life and leadership training.

 Currently there are 4 people staying in the house, these people for some years has been involving with IofC movement and activities, they are:


·      Iskandar (male)

IofC Indonesia full time worker, member of IofC Indonesia Executive Council, he is responsible for IofC Indonesia administration affairs, a private English Teacher, and a freelance bus chaperone at British International School in Jakarta

·      Yudi Septiawan (male)

IofC Indonesia volunteer, member of IofC Indonesia Executive Council, he is responsible for IofC Indonesia financial affairs, and also a postgraduate student at public university studying International Relation

·      Abdullah Alwazin (male)

IofC Indonesia full time worker, IofC Indonesia President (General Coordinator) member of IofC Indonesia Executive Council, translator, private English Teacher, and a postgraduate student at a private university, studying English

·      Akhmad Hairul Umam (male)

IofC Indonesia volunteer, member of IofC Indonesia Supervisory Council, former IofC Indonesia President (General Coordinator), an academic staff at a private university and lecturer

The House can accommodate up to 20 people for one event, it features 4 rooms, 2 small meeting rooms, two kitchen and two gardens. And the cost of renting the new house is: IDR.18.000.000* for one year renting (it is efficient from September 1st 2013 to August 31st)

How we finance it? Those who stay in the IofC Indonesia house share the payment of the House, each person share: IDR 4.500.000, and the operational of the House will be covered by IofC Indonesia management (through donations from our members and supporters, and so far it has been raised IDR 1.200.000**).

And again we would like to convey our sincere gratitude and thanks to all of you who has been continuously praying and supporting for our movement and activities, and also however we still keep our fingers crossed, and we ask for your prayers and support that soon we can have our permanent IofC Indonesia house to make our work and movement can be more efficient. May God, Allah, the Divine always bless our work and efforts. Amen

Official address:

Rumah Initiatives of Change Indonesia

Jl.Legoso Raya Blok C5 No.9/10

Perum Griya Satwika (Komp.Telkom)

Pisangan Ciputat Tangerang Selatan 15419

Banten Indonesia

*approximately USD 1800 (with USD rate 1 USD =10.000 IDR)

**until this article is written, the amount of fund that we raised reached IDR 1.200.000

On Religion


One thing that really discouraged me to be a religious person, I have a problem when a religion talks about ritual this and that, and those rituals become the strict line between heaven and hell, or some testimony of faith can be a simply differentiation between heaven and hell, I have a lot of friends and there are so many good people they do have faiths but their religion is not my religion, my mind and heart starts to question and question where they belong? And at this point I have no satisfying answer for such question.

On Suffering and Real


To be real is to suffer.

Unless we gain the ability to suffer, we’ll never be real, once we embrace and experience suffering then we become real.

Becoming real means becoming true to Yourself, aligning your being in this Earth.

(These words come from my experience from nowhere Friday morning)

On Meals


On a trip again, here I’m writing, it comes to my realisation, from where my sadness come, the words: “never eat loney” really strikes my emotion, I’ve just realised how sad I am in every meal I have, after I shared my life story in somewhere and sometime in Vietnam, I realised that I spent most of my meals when I was kid alone, in fact people provided me food, but rarely a company, it really feels so hard to talk every time I have meal appointments, because I used to talk with the food than people.

On something and every thing,

Now I’m the president, of a community called Initiatives of Change, a community that aims to promote change starts with oneself, but somehow I was feeling that I lost my passion, direction, and guidence, I’ve been driven by different windy winds,

Some clouds need to be cleared, very soon, however I’m still excited and enthusiast with this word: LOVE.

Batang Langit


Di batang langit kita berjumpa, di batang langit engkau berdansa.

Indahmu menghadirkan harap dalam setiap derap. Panorama angkasa.

In the sky bar we meet, in the sky bar you dance.

Your beauty summons hope in every breath. Timeless sky panorama.

Let Time Thicken Everything


Let time thicken everything (Lincoln).

And life goes on, goes on, goes on, new updates, new movements, new actions hide the old updates, old movement, old actions, for sure I can’t digest them all, and for sure if my brain can’t work anymore, and my heart can’t work anymore, just let time thicken everything, thicken your love, thicken my love, except all my hatred. And I love you, timelessly. MMmuach!

Apa itu Cinta?


Dua bulan, entah, atau, tiga bulan belakangan, gairah, hasrat dan keinginan untuk bermasturbasi terus meninggi, hampir tiada hari tanpa masturbasi, memang gangguan emosional akhir-akhir ini lebih meninggi dari sebelumnya, memang ini semua akumulasi dari pengabaian dan keterlenaan yang sudah-sudah. Manusia berasal dari surgawi, saat lelaki itu tak lagi menemukan surgawi di sekitarnya, ia mencipta dalam dirinya(Nya).

Bahkan nun jauh di sana, di negeri yang katanya seorang teman dari Jerman, Anne Esswein, adalah perbatasan bumi dan negeri surgawi, lelaki itu tetap tak kehilangan hasratnya untuk bermasturbasi.

Tentu saja masturbasi membutuhkan fantasi, berbagai macam tipikal orang keluar masuk dalam fantasi lelaki itu, tapi anehnya, lelaki itu tak pernah bisa memfantasikan seseorang yang katanya ia benar-benar sayangi, kasihi, seseorang yang disebutnya medium. Medium untuk melihat negeri surgawi dan keindahan ilahi, ia kerap berkata, ia senantiasa mengucapkan kalimat “Namaste” setiap kali ia melihat wajahNya, ia merasakan wajahNya yang indah hadir dalam wajah seseorang itu, perempuan itu.

Medan magnet, atomik dan alkemik, semuanya terhubung. Pernah lelaki itu berfantasi tentang seorang perempuan kaukasia di sebuah konferensi di negeri yang kata si Anne itu adalah perbatasan duniawi dan surgawi, di suatu malam -yang tak malam di negeri lainnya-. Perempuan kaukasia itu tampak jelas dalam fantasinya, dan akhirnya meletas keudara, entah kemana setelah prosesi masturbasi itu selesai. Esok harinya, perempuan kaukasia itu begitu dingin dan tak seramah saat lelaki itu pertama kali berjumpa, dan itu hanya sekedar fantasi, sekali lagi fantasi, tak ada sentuhan fisik sama sekali.

Medan alkemik, atomik dan magnet. Apa cinta itu, apakah perpaduan suci dan penglihatan,perabaan,perasaan keindahan wajahNya Yang tak Berbatas, atau kesemuaan (wholeness), dan tentu saja jika kesemuaan, itu termasuk juga gairah dan hasrat?