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And Runnin’ Runnin’

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XTEP 7K BSD

 

I started running since September last year, I began with a 30 days simultaneous running. What stimulated me to run again was when I was Caux, Switzerland, with a group of people from Switzerland and Ukraine I went up to one of the highest point in Caux, Roche de Naye, it was during my last minute days in Caux, as it is for my Ukrainian friends too, so we walked so fast to that highest point and truth be told most of the time, since I walked slowly, I was left behind, and I should thank my friends because every time I was left behind they were always willing to wait me and helped to climb the mountain, and finally we all reached the Roche de Naye just in time.

After I came back to my country I started to run, but unfortunately it was in Ramadan, anticipating from dehydration, for sure I couldn’t run in the morning, but I didn’t stop there, I decided to run before ifthar, I run around 5 pm in the afternoon, in fact, yes, I skipped doing ifthar with friends.

And in September I started my 30 days simultaneous running, and yes I did it!, but after I finished my 30 days challenge, I lost my pair of shoes, I didn’t know, it might be already picked by a street rubbish picker, anyway I just let it, I took a breath and then decided to buy a new pair of shoes, I choose New Balance, since it’s once chosen by Steve Jobs, ;), I bought that new pair of shoes just exactly before I joined first 10K race at Jakarta Race organised by Four Season hotel, yes Jakarta Race was where I wore my new pair of shoes, and I didn’t realise that I felt some pain in my feet after the race, and later on I know that I shouldn’t wear new shoes for a race, it should be well-tested first, and after this race, it always tempts me to adjust myself to what we call ‘running fashion’, it’s good as long I got bucks and heart to fulfil this desire. And my second official race was XTEP 7k in BSD Tangerang, and I got my first running record, I run 7k in 42.03 minutes.

My current Running Gears? Nike+ Sportband, and a rectangle iPod shuffle, anyway, so far it’s one of the most expensive running gears that I ever buy.

Since then I keep running and running. 🙂

Goal!

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How do you define a goal? for me it’s an excitement! I describe it as the most beautiful woman that I’ve been picturing in my dream, for me it looks like the way Wayne Rooney did the acrobatic kick to to the City’s goal two weeks ago.

Truth be told I always deny my self as a perfectionist person, since for me, a perfectionist looks like procrastinator in some ways, however it is undeniable that I always perceive that reaching a goal should be performed in an acrobatic way just like what Rooney did, and then if I can’t do in such way, it’s better for me just not to make any goal and remain idle, and such ‘acrobatic way’ still leave its steps in my mind.

However I still deny myself that I’m a perfectionist, and my mindset always saying that I want to do things in its proper way, and according to the procedure and whatsoever. Indeed I try to do such acrobatic way, but in the end of the day, I feel and observed less goals achieved, and such situation leads me into frustration.

Last weekend, in Initiatives of Change Indonesia community house, where I live, there was weekly discussion in making a goal, there was a man called Saul Allen – he denied himself that he has a relation with Woody Allen, however I’m sure that Woody Allen has relation with him, at least in his name -, yes he’s our American buddy who participated in our last year camp, last weekend he facilitated that session in making a strategic life goal.

One of my highlight for the session that tweaked my understanding and perception toward life goal, is in the way he deciphered one of the symptoms of the perfectionist attitude, that is: all or nothing attitude, yes this is absolutely what I need to know, this aspect is so me, I realised that somehow I’m categorized as a desperate perfectionist, I realised that I spent a lot of time just thinking on how to do things rather than thinking the excitement of scoring a life goal.

I realised that goal itself, is the excitement, and there are many ways to do this, yes in anyways, but it should be in an ethical way.

Goal is the small form of a vision and it should have ways for measurement, and once you set up a goal you should make effort to convince people about how important the goal for you and also to get their positive support, and fuel with your full energy whenever you share your life goal with people around you.

Nuances: today’s digest, still about myself

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Today turned into its complexity, complexity of my past and complexity of nuance, the first one triggered by my hot call to my dad in the mid day, yes I know it was hard to admit my past mistakes but what made me hurt it was repeated many times by the soft voice of my dad, but I know it was not on the appropriate time to call, however an evening soft call to my mom made me relieved from any feelings and made me happy to know that I meet my promise.

Today I updated on “my facebook status update that switching off your mobile phone is a good leap to help you stay in focus”, indeed it was really helpful for me today, today I was able to finish some works smoothly, and I feel really really relieved after checklisted those works, it made lighter in the evening so far it is the lightest evening I ever had, I feel my head very light, yes it totally works for me switching off mobile phone, because when sms comes it’s so easy to change my mood and easy to make me worry without reason, so overall I’m grateful for what I decided today!

Yes indeed I missed to post an entry yesterday, so it will make the 365days blogpost project stay longer for one day at least, and now it’s getting closer to welcome a group of foreign people that I used to in the group, a group of people that has a project to change the world with their life changing stories: Action for Life 5. So welcome tomorrow, pray that tomorrow will be brighter and lighter leave all fears behind!

Happy Eleven wish you a Winning Eleven: 2011!

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That’s my new year’s greeting tag line, I use it to greet my friends, in my facebook and twitter status update.

In the last two years I welcomed new year’s eve in a grieving mood, in 2009’s new year’s eve, it was my turning point in understanding woman, I failed to transform a friendship into girlfriendship relationship, I cried just like a coward, and it was my first time ridiculously sending flower to a woman, however soon after that I learn a lot about woman, I thrown some bucks to attend a workshop on how to understand a woman, it helps me a lot in understanding women and how to deal with them.

In 2010’s new year’s eve, indeed I grieved again, one of the most influential figure in this country, a father of one of my bestfriends past away, and at that time I was not with her to support her. 2010 just like a wave and storm coming to my life, it challenged me a lot, it’s so scary, however let list the challenges: first my biological father past away, indeed I prayed for him, however he’s just like a common person to me, I don’t know him a lot, many issues from my unknown past seemed resurrected at that time and it deeply shook me inside, and up to now I still don’t understand how to be a good family man, second I was dropped out from the university (#nomention)that I’ve been studying for more than 9 years, after series of struggling times in the last minute of my deadline finally yes I was dropped out, I know I did a mistake but the university staff did abusive action, it seems that it gets closer that somehow I will have a common experience with uncle Steve Jobs (adopted and dropped out from the university) ha ha ha, however this dropped out case made decreased my self-confidence a lot, up to now I’m still struggling to revamp my self-confidence, and if people ask me what do I do: the quickest answers that I can give to them: I’m a social worker working with Initiatives of Change Indonesia and I am also a freelance translator. And last but not least, the third, that zebra mosquito bite my skin, and I was hospitalised for the first time in these recent years, it was like a horror being in a hospital, however what I’m grateful from this experience is the enormous support from the friend around, this experience showed me who are the real friend for me; I feel so blessed by a massive support from friends and relatives.

What about this year of eleven’s new years’ eve? let me list then, yes our Indonesian national eleven won the last game of the AFF Suzuki Cup however they’re still not able to win the championship due to the lost aggregate 4-2 to the Malaysian team, in some senses, it’s good though since it shook the arrogant chairman of our football association and it tells us that as a nation we’re still not deserved to win the game, however the last won game did work as the solace to our national football team’s fans.

And in the last day of 2010 I decided going nowhere, I preferred to stay at home and to have a solitude new year’s eve celebration, my feeling was like a flat pan before my landlord invited me and my friends to have bawal fish barbeque party in his garden, and this is the pattern of this new year’s celebration quiet period-barbeque-and -cliche- fireworks. And it’s time to review and plan new life strategy! Happy New Years All!

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*the uncle google google has been deleted my http://www.wazeen.blogspot.com, that’s why I post an english entry in this blog, from now on I will use this blog to blog either in Bahasa Indonesia or English.